Cutting... an addiction
I'm a recovering cutter. I'm recovering from years and years of self harm. I have a hard time with the word recovering. I don't feel recovered, and I don't know how to express that I still think about cutting several times a week even though my life is far better than it was in the past when I was cutting on a regular basis. It's not something I can really explain and often it is hard to talk about because there is such stigma around self harm and suicide. Why is it so hard for us to talk about? I wish I knew. I started cutting when I was about 14. I was severely depressed and unable to show my deep sorrow and anger and confusion. I was struggling so much and as I got older the cutting only got worse. When I finally got to college I found better ways to cut that were deeper and caused scars. I cut more often and all over my body, specifically my arms. I would cut during times of high stress or debilitating depression. It became my go-to anytime I needed releas